Will I be a calorie counter forever? That’s something I’ve asked myself lately. NO. I hope and pray not, and I am not going to resign myself to just being worried about calories.
Who else struggles with obsessive calorie counting? I’m not as obsessive as i used to be, and I’m not worried about eating too many calories most of the time. I do often count to reach a certain calorie count.
Why do I calorie count? I’ve been asking myself this lately.
1) I’m afraid that if I stop I will eat too much.
2) I’m afraid of not eating enough .
3) I’m afraid of not having that ‘control’ in my mind over what I eat and how much I eat.
Most of the time, I don’t count calories to the ‘T’. I estimate them in my head. I don’t obsess over them nearly as much as I used to, but there’s still that lingering fear in the back of my head that I’ll either eat too much, or eat too little.
I guess you could say I don’t trust my body’s hunger cues all the time. I focus TOO much on the numbers and not on the overall benefit of eating.
Calorie counting is much less on my mind than it used to be, and I am very grateful for that gift. I think each struggle is just a new step in the journey.
Well, that’s what I’m dealing with right now, and it’s a slow journey, but I am HOPING and praying that Lord willing, some day I can be free of that calorie counting or any obsession over numbers to move onto new battles.
Now, this past week has included a LOT of freeing meals, in particular, meals eaten out at restaurants, and the calorie counter in me has been challenged especially because I went to restaurants that don’t have any calorie counts on menus (WHOOPPEEE!!!!), and no calorie counts on their websites. (That is a HUGE gift, and I really don’t like it when restaurants have calorie counts on their menus or online. I still confess that I do occasionally go to check but it’s never a helpful step to recovery.)
I don’t go out to eat very often, and I think sometimes going out to eat gets a bad rap, but it’s really such a blessing and such a good way to take a step back especially when you’re tired or you want to spend time with a friend but don’t have the energy to cook.
Even though I LOVE to cook, and I think it’s one of the love languages God gave me to express love to others, I do get tired, and so it was wonderful going out to YUMMY coconut curry and then fro yo later with one of my BFF’s. I thought I would encourage each one of you that get to participate in WIAW that it’s a fun thing to go out to eat and enjoy people’s company. Life is about far more than obsessing over calories or fat or salt in restaurant food every once in a while.
We got curry together. We talked about life and relationships and people who really show us the meaning of that sweet Christ like friendship. This friend is actually one of those friends that I would consider as one of the most loyal, Christ like sisters in Jesus I know. She has been such a constant friend even when I have not, and that’s A LOT.
Then we went out to fro-yo, because my stomach wasn’t quite full enough. I have to say that having curry beforehand was just right married with a cup of yummy fruity fro yo and some chocolatey/cookie dough-ish toppings.
#foodfreedom is 100% worth it, and daily I’m learning that especially as I just marvel thinking back on spending that night with my friend. I wasn’t worried about the food that much when I was eating (GOD’s GRACE and MERCY to me through Jesus is just inexplicable!).
Then as we’re talking about the deliciousness and the freedom of eating out or buying pre made food, I’ve been thinking about foods that challenge or scare me.
One of those would be: Bakery goodies. Whether it be bread or cookies or scones from a bakery, I often struggle to want to buy some and eat a whole slice (if that’s what my body needs), because I think of the calories in that certain baked good.
Well, God’s mercies are new every day, because on Friday of last week, I was thankful to be able to enjoy a thick slice of frosted pumpkin chocolate chip bread from our local bakery.
Cora would have to be one of my main inspirations with all the baked goodies she makes/tries from local bakeries to go out and get that baked good and enjoy it!
The conclusion of the matter? The calorie counter in me was put to rest many times this week with going out to eat when I didn’t know the approximate calorie counts of what I ate. But I enjoyed it so much, because God used these opportunities to take my eyes off my worries and myself and focus on Him and the people that I love.
Are you a calorie counter?
Have you been a calorie counter and transitioned to totally intuitive eating? How long did it take you?