I’m done with letting this monster called ‘comparison or comparing myself’ steal joy. I’m learning that I rely too much on myself and not entirely on God’s work in me and through me to stop this prison of comparing.
I keep saying that, but truly, I am praying that this won’t even be a thought a month from now (well that’s not entirely realistic), but I am declaring war on fear of other’s opinions and comparing myself to others.
I am so over with comparing, because it’s never helpful.
Note: This is not me shouting at anybody else but ME. I am just too proud and too focused on myself too often, and that’s why I’ve been letting it get me ‘depressed’ when I don’t get as many ‘likes’ or follows or comments on a post.
Isn’t that ridiculous? Well, God’s been convicting me that I’ve just been too selfish about this blogging thing, comparing myself, when I should be serving and laying down my life for others.
I almost feel guilty that these all sound like empty, vain words, but would you please keep me accountable to this?
Every day, there are people, gals, guys, pouring hundreds of hours into their blogs, making money, sharing their stories, sharing their hearts, and here I am thinking that I deserve more by comparing myself? (Bad Emily.)
By the grace of God, I have so many gifts, and what do I need to do?
Share them with others, not hog them all for myself.
Ok, I just had to get that pep talk out there to get me out of my head and back into what this is all about:
The precious lives of people who come on here and dedicate time to reading my lame ramblings. 🙂 Thank you for your grace.
Top 3 Foods
Bhappy Peanut Butter
‘Nuff said… You all know that I love Bhappy Peanut Butter. 🙂 I kind of bought about 6 jars in the mail, and Bhappy sent 4 extra jars to share. I did an Instagram giveaway for 2, and I’m reserving the other 2 for later in this month. Just hope that I don’t eat them myself.
Can I really say enough about Perfect Bars? Since I did my first review of them, I think the love for them has gone up exponentially. I just think it’s pretty cool that God made all these veggies and fruits and of course honey and PEANUT BUTTER that go into this delicious bar. I am a bit anxious about buying food online, because I feel that it’s too ‘spendy’, but lately I’ve been learning how it’s so much better to buy quality food from people you trust, rather than cheap food, as recapped in my ‘Small Business Foods Post.‘
Yogurt Bowls with Watermelon
This was oddly, good. Of course, anything tastes good with watermelon, right? I put another PERFECT (not obsessed) Bar on it, a muffin, some Naturally Nutty, and beautiful delicious watermelon.
Now let’s get into the …
Top 3 Lows
1. This one is always weird for me, because I’m generally optimistic, but let’s be real. I struggle. I have downs. I have valleys of the shadow of death, but I don’t focus on them. God’s grace carries me through those too.
The biggest lows for me this week were probably:
A. Being overly focused on comparison.
B. Being too anxious about ‘eating too much’ and worrying about whether my body would process a Sonic shake. O_O However, the anxiety passed so quickly! Praise God!
C. Not trusting God’s eternal purpose enough and being overly focused on circumstances.
But… the lows don’t define us, thankfully, and there were so many encouraging things about this week too, so here comes some of my favorite parts including the Top 3 Highs, the Top 3 Instagrams, and the top um… 3 or maybe 5 or so posts that I found this week.
Top 3 Highs
A Sonic Shake Night with My Family
This was so wonderful and peaceful. My family went out to Sonic after 8 pm, and we all got shakes. My little brain started to go into a tizzy thinking about all the calories in the shake, but I just thanked God for it instead, praying that He would bless it to my body. And I drank that whole peanut butter fudge shake.
Boy, it was so delicious! And we just got to sit on the grass in our old little country town and watch the glory of the sunset. It was incredible. I even got a picture in yesterday’s post of one of the huge clouds all lighted up by the sun. It was huge and fluffy and pink and gorgeous.
My sister is one of the most precious people to me in my life among 5 other people (my family), and this post was dedicated to her and all she’s taught me about recovery. She is a blessing from heaven.
I love de-cluttering. I just feel like I have too much stuff, if you know what I mean? I mean, you definitely can’t bury it with me when I die, so why keep all of what I don’t need?
I’m definitely not wanting to go to extremes on this, but getting rid of things I haven’t read or worn or used in years is FREEING! 🙂
It all kind of made me think of this verse in Hebrews 12:1, ‘Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,’
Now for the top Instagram accounts and top blog posts of the week. It amazes me how all my blogger friends come up with gobs of good content. It’s impossible to share it all.
For some reason, my blog won’t let me type anything after embedding an Instagram shot, so I’m just going to go with my:
Top 3 Instagram Accounts This Week
3. Susan Turnmire – This lady’s words for all the recovery warriors are LIFE giving. She just speaks the words, the compassion, the love of Jesus Christ into every single person, including me every day.
Susan literally makes those who feel like their souls are clinging to the dust alive through the power of the Word.
Psalm 119:25, ‘My soul clings to the dust; give me life according to your word!’
And, there were too many good blog posts to just share three, so I know Kate will let me ‘fudge’ a bit on this one.
Top Blog Posts of the Week
Words you Need to Hear – Yep you need to hear these.
What I Learned From Not Working Out for a Month – This was like breathing fresh air. I kept thinking, ‘If I have to take a break, it WILL not kill me.’
Is your Motivation for Health Helpful or Harmful – Catherine just always says these things so thoughtfully.
What It’s Like to Have Celiac Disease According to a Fitness Competitor – I used to really struggle with compassion towards those who had allergies. Isn’t that sad? Kristy and Emily especially have opened my eyes to how hard it is. I always need to give more grace.
When Feeling Overwhelmed Becomes Apathy- I was so thankful for this post. It was like breathing fresh air and freedom to just focus on where I am right now.
Kat’s Personal Food Rules – Kat always gets me out of my natural ‘boxiness’ when it comes to food. Love this gal.
Why I Don’t Eat Quest Bars – I guess this is kind of why I don’t eat Quest Bars (after trying 2), but I am 100% not against you eating them either. 🙂 I just prefer other kinds.
Now I’m off to take a shower before shutting down for the night. Sleep is a gift. Savor every minute.
What were your Top 3 Lows and how do you get through lows?
What were your top 3 blessings from this week that come to mind?
Do you have any favorite recovery/Instagram accounts I should follow?
Do you like Quest Bars or Perfect Bars? Do you have a favorite bar?
Do you like de-cluttering/minimalism or are you in between?