I’m not quite yet on the faithful WIAW train, but I wanted to share the link to Jenn’s WIAW link-up, so you can go over and salivate over some yummy looking eats!
Now on to a bit more weighty of an issue. Other bloggers have tackled fear foods, and I wanted to share 3 main places/foods that were big fears for me as I stepped out in faith to leave the past of my body obsession and eating idols behind, and the ways in which I conquered/am conquering those fears.
Recovery from an eating issue, putting away the idols of eating and body, doesn’t come in a day. In fact, for me, it didn’t come in a year. There are these mountains, fears that linger. I don’t know how often I have had to remind myself when eating a fear food, ‘Whatsoever is not of faith is sin,’ and ‘perfect love casts out all fear.’
What were some of these fears and why do I not struggle with them anymore (most of the time)?
1. Restaurants. I was terrified of eating out. I thought that eating out, for me, automatically meant that I would eat too much and then come home, have to exercise it all off, and then be bloated and uncomfortable for the rest of the day.
a. How did I conquer this fear? Well, I would tell myself that when I went to a restaurant, I was not obligated to finish all my food and all the food on someone else’s plate. I would eat slower, instead of stuffing my face, to let my mind catch up with my body. I would savor each bite, instead of thinking, ‘I have to eat this quickly.’ I would talk to my family while eating, which takes your mind off the food and puts it on the more important things in front of you, namely, your relationships with your family. Each time it became easier and easier. The voices in my head got smaller and smaller, and the time I spent with my family became sweeter and sweeter.
2. Sweets/Sugar-Desserts is another one of the things that those with eating idols fear. They think of them as loaded with calories, fat, and sugar (aka-something in our minds that will make us ‘fat.’). Yet, eating a cookie never made me fat. I didn’t even gain 10 pounds during Christmas, and I also know that that ‘number’ doesn’t define who I am or my worth.
a. This fear was definitely one that was probably easier for me to conquer than others because I’ve always liked sweet food. Yet, it was difficult to not be rigid about when I consumed my sweets, how much I consumed, and what I consumed. I could cover a desire for control with eating icecream with the family, but I wouldn’t eat cooke in the middle of the day. I wouldn’t dare touch icecream before 7:00 pm, and when I did, I would spoon it out carefully. So what did I do?
I made fro-yo dates with friends at 3:00 pm (GASP! And it usually didn’t ruin my appetite).
I licked my fingers (then washed them of course) while making cookies. I would eat one cookie after I made it. I ate icecream in the middle of the day instead of a banana. That usually meant I didn’t feel like icecream later, but I had to learn to be more flexible and less fearful.
I ordered a huge cone at Coldstone last week and ate the entire thing and thought, ‘This is crazy,’ while I was eating it. It was also really delicious.
I thanked God for every sweet, every dessert, and I promise you that GRATEFULNESS is the cure to complaining, the cure to conquering so much fear. It opens your eyes to the fact that God has given us so many awesome gifts from His merciful hand, and it humbles you when you step back and look at them. You forget about the calories, and all you can think about is that I have never starved because of lack of food a day in my life. He is so good, far beyond what I deserve.
3. Another big food fear of mine is what many term … junk food. That is chips, cookies, crackers, and snack food, that maybe doesn’t have the BEST nutritional value. Yes, I would not eat it every day, all day, because that would make me feel aweful, but it also isn’t wrong or sinful to eat it occasionally without having a heart attack. I had to tell myself that when we would buy junk food that was outside of rigid center of control. I had to remind myself to be grateful, munch each chip and enjoy the saltiness, and then go enjoy a handful of carrot sticks, just as much.
It is freeing when your life is not consumed by food. It is freeing to remind yourself, that as a Christian, you are not defined by the amount of calories you eat, but by your love for Jesus. And love is natural. Love flows. It’s organic. It’s not something that you can exactly explain logically. Think about Jesus and His death for us! Jesus loved us because… He loved us. There was no other reason to love us. But that makes the power of His love truly amazing and the very definition and beyond of AWESOME.
‘Amazing Love, how can it be that thou my God should die for me?’
When you are overwhelmed by fear, remember the amazing love of God. His love overwhelms all fear, and His forgiveness encompasses ALL sins.