Before we get into these delicious creaminess of this ‘Rainforest Dark Chocolate Overnight Oatmeal Bowl’, let’s talk about how one kind of love taught me the right kind of ‘self care’ or ‘self love’ in recovery. Do you remember when I wrote this blog post titled, ‘More than Self Love?’
I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and I’ve been learning more about what love means, why love is so important and vital to finding a reason for living. This is just a small bit of what recovery taught me.
Thank you Katie for the Marvelous Monday link-up!
Learning to take care of your body, soul, mind and spirit in recovery is one of the most essential, yet hardest parts of recovery. My desire and prayer is that I would be able to love God and love my neighbor, while still caring for my body, soul, mind and spirit in a way that would glorify God and give praise to Him. And that’s hard.
You see. I was nervous about recovery being selfish. I know that people say that you can be selfish, but Jesus Christ died for my sins, the so that I could lay down my life for others and abandon sin and be freed from the lies of the devil. Jesus calls me to lay down my life in service.
But that doesn’t mean:
Destroying the work of God (as in beating your body, starving it, or destroy God’s work for the sake of my own desires to have a perfect body or ‘perfect diet.’)
What does it mean?
I realized that it all started in one place.
It started with experiencing, not just in my head, a taste of the reality of the love of God for a sinner like me.
Last night, I was thinking about this, and it brought me to tears. We were listening to a sermon on Romans 8:33 that says, ‘He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?’
I’ve grown up listening to the Scripture and being taught from the Scripture and being soaked in the water of the Word, the grace of God, but it hasn’t always taken root in my heart.
Yet, the ROCKIEST roads of recovery was the valley of the shadow of death and despair in recovery that woke me up to my desperate . It need for God, my desperate need to know His love, to be saved from my sins, from my enmity with Him, and to be reconciled to Him.
I’m thankful for an eating disorder. Why am I thankful? I would have never wished for a trial, but it was just like David says in Psalm 119:67, ‘Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word.’ I was way off course before I struggled with an eating disorder.
Really Selfish and I didn’t even know it.
Not careful with my words.
And the scariest thing was that I didn’t even acknowledge it. I was often too busy, fluffing up my own self righteous frills like the Pharisee when he came into the temple with the publican. I would say in my head, ‘Thank God I am not as other men,’ when I really was as other men. I was vain in my imaginations, cold in my relationship towards God.
And then this year recovery took one of the largest steps possible.
It wasn’t me. I didn’t do anything. Last year I was despairing that I would ever stop gaining weight, that I would ever stop focusing on calories or be able to stay off the scale.
That’s when everything seemed to change. I can’t really explain it. I just know that it was the work of God, because what are the fruits of the Spirit?
… (More in Galatians 5)
It was the first time in about 8 years that I had actually been able to look at the mirror and thank God for making the way I am.
It was the first time in about 8 years that I was able to find joy in serving others instead of serving my desires for the right amount of exercise, right amount of calories, or … for people to approve me.
It was the first time I experienced just a taste of the incredible peace of being reconciled, not just to my body, but to God.
It was the first time that I could actually be patient with my body as it healed, knowing that God’s timing is perfect, and that my only responsibility as God’s child was and is to wait upon Him.
The love of God is what taught me the right way to care for my body as the temple of the Holy Spirit, to gird up my mind to fight against the lies that ED fires at you, and to truly wonder at the amazing gift of the human soul, created in God’s image.
The greatest manifestation of God’s love was on the cross. It was Jesus Christ, coming, obediently, willingly giving His life for people who hated Him and cursed Him.
I was one of those people. Yet God saved me by His mercy, by the sacrifice of His Son, who bore all the sins that would have put me in hell, on the cross. He loved His life not unto death, and He had the victory over death.
It was God’s inscrutable mercy that I didn’t deserve that saved me, and only God’s love and mercy will bring me home.
Disclaimer: I did receive peanut butter from Nut Butter Nation for these recipes. However I only support and share brands that I love, trust, and would eat regularly myself.
Now what better way to end this post with a recipe, a recipe that really embodies the richness and the freedom of recovery. This isn’t just any recipe. It’s a recipe that I kind of ‘formulated’ to make it ‘higher calorie.’
This bowl is full of creaminess, fat (one of my favorite nutrients), some protein, and carbs for a satisfying breakfast.
(Take note: You are not talking to a health professional here, so take everything I label as ‘high calorie’ for me with a grain of salt.)
This bowl includes my VERY FAVORITE chocolate peanut butter. If you want to know more of my thoughts on this specific one you can read this post here!
The Rainforest Dark Chocolate flavor is basically the best chocolate flavored peanut butter I’ve ever eaten, so my thinking is that it would make a really good bowl of ‘overnight oatmeal’ cause overnight oats are a blogger ‘thang.’
What does the bowl include?
Bob’s Red Mill Vanilla Protein Powder
Rainforest Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter
Gluten Free Oats
Let’s get into making it shall we, since I already was so long winded at the beginning of this post! 🙂
- 1/4 cup full fat yogurt
- 1/4 cup vanilla protein powder
- 1 tbsp. Nut Butter Nation Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter + more for drizzling
- 1 cup almond milk
- 1/2 cup oats (certified GF)
- Mix all ingredients in a jar. Put it in the refrigerator overnight. Cut up strawberries or another favorite fruit and drizzle with more chocolate peanut butter.
That is the beauty of the overnight oatmeal.
You prepare it the night before, and voila, it is there in the morning. I was thankful this morning that it was already prepared before heading off for a short 4k-5k race. Going into races well fueled is always one of my priorities, and these were super easy on my stomach which was a big PLUS! 🙂
Ok, so who wants some more overnight oatmeal ideas? I collected a few other recipes for you to use just in case this one doesn’t quite suit your fancy for breakfast.
or you could even try an overnight oatmeal smoothie like:
Amanda has a HUGE store of overnight oatmeal smoothies, and they are literally the creamiest, almost ‘milkshake’ style smoothies that I have ever had, so you should check them out.
Did you ever go through the valley of shadow of death in recovery or any part of your life?
What has pulled you through the darkest times in your life?
Do you like overnight oats or hot oats better or both equally?
Favorite flavor of nut butter? Do you like chocolate peanut butter?
How have you learned to love and care for your body in the right way?