Dealing with change is not something I have ever excelled at in all my 25, almost 26 years of life. Change is hard for me, but I am thankful for it. Can you imagine what would happen if we as humans didn’t change? We need to change. I need God’s hand in my life, transforming me, refining me like gold in a fire, diamonds in the rough. Yet, it doesn’t seem to get easier.
Last month, a big change came around in my life.
It was the day my younger sister got engaged.
The years of watching movies together, playing ‘house’, baking cookies, family Bible time with just our family have ended, and that doesn’t make me heartbroken. It makes me treasure the memories, but this change is good. The time is right. The day my future brother-in-law came into my sister’s life, I remember thinking,’This just seems so right.’
God’s timing is always perfect. There is no mistake in the way God works; that is one of the biggest things that has struck me this past year. The past year has been the most painful of my entire life, and yet it has include so much:
more knowledge of my identity in Christ Jesus
better relationships in my family and church family
Even after all the moments I didn’t understand, I praise the Lord for the change. I no longer spend a majority of my time thinking about my body image, my exercise routine, the food I ate or didn’t eat, and I’m moving forward.
Now eating disorder recovery is still very much a part of my life and story; it’s an area where I have a heart for young women that are struggling, and I want to point others to Jesus Christ and keep telling them about how He worked a change in me.
This year makes me really want to sing this verse from Romans 11:33, “Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!”
The blogging world has changed, but in a big way, I want to keep this little place the ‘same.’ I want to keep telling you about how God has changed me, how God is teaching me to embrace each day with joy and confidence, how the Lord is convicting me of sin and bringing me to Himself daily, how the single life is NOT a drag or a curse but a blessing, and to trust the Lord in each change no matter what.
I found this picture from: 4 years ago today, and it made me think, “I am grateful that I’m not the same person I was back then. I was still insecure in my body to a huge degree. I still wore a smile on the outside and carried a great deal of pain on the inside.”
I wanted to give a huge shoutout to bloggers that have been a huge instrument in the change in my mindset all about:
Appreciating and not destroying my body
Taking care of my body for God’s glory
Instagrammers Who Have Really Helped Me:
Change is good.
It’s hard, but thankfully the transformation always produces something beautiful when God is working.
2 Corinthians 3:18, ‘ But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as a]by the Spirit of the Lord.’