(Please take note: First of all, I am not a medical professional or doctor, so this is all from personal experience. Please consult someone wiser and more knowledgeable before you make any changes to your diet.)
It’s time to talk, to bring back the topic of my …. period.
The struggles over the years that my frail body has had have taught me that God made me with such a fine balance. Every day, I need food, SOUL nourishment, exercise, rest, and work.
What caused the struggle with my period? I didn’t realize that bodies need rest and food.
I treated my body like it was … something to be just ‘used’ instead of treasured as the temple of the Holy Spirit.
In 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Paul reminds the Christians that their bodies are not their own, to do with what they like. He says, ‘What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.’
I didn’t look at myself as a life, bought with the blood of Jesus Christ, and this lead to so many self-obsessed struggles. They even manifested themselves in something called amenorrhea.
This is where my very first blogger collaboration comes into this post.
That is why Alyssa, one of my FAVE recovery bloggers from Blissful Lyss (who has a heart that is just so big it can’t even fully fit into her blog posts) and I are starting ‘Take Care of Your Temple Tuesday.’
We’re going to make this collaboration practical and personal. Each week, on both of our blogs, we will be talking about different tips for taking care of your body and different struggles we’ve had with:
Maybe it will turn into a link-up someday?
I focused SO MUCH on food, though, when I was in recovery, but I DID NOT want to eat it.
I fell into so much judgment even of others eating while I was struggling so much with my own idolatry over food. These verses from Romans 14 really convicted me tonight even as I thought about how I judged others so harshly about food for at least 6 or 7 years.
I would look at what others ate and think, ‘Well I’m glad that I have self control enough to say no to those things.‘ I had my own ‘self-righteousness.’
God gives so much FREEDOM in the Lord Jesus Christ when it comes to food, much more freedom than the diet industry or my own mind would give to myself in recovery.
Romans 14:21-23 states, ‘Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way. I know, and am persuaded by the Lord Jesus, that there is nothing unclean of itself: but to him that esteemeth any thing to be unclean, to him it is unclean. But if thy brother be grieved with thy meat, now walkest thou not charitably. Destroy not him with thy meat, for whom Christ died.’
Think about that. In God’s Word, Paul, inspired by the Holy Spirit says that ‘nothing is unclean of itself,’ but that there is liberty to each brother or sister.
What’s the over riding principle?
That’s also known as ‘walking in love.’
I see now that I wasn’t walking in love towards my brothers and sisters, towardsthe people made in the image of God around me. I was walking in judgment when I should have really been ready to admit my own sins and say that Jesus Christ is my only hope and joy, not the calories or food I eat.
I wasn’t thinking about myself as accountable to God for what I ate. I was thinking of myself as accountable to the:
and even other writers…
I put this chain of healthy eating (aka: low calorie, no desserts, etc…) around myself, and that affected my period.
Paul says that the kingdom of God is righteousness, PEACE, and JOY in the Holy Spirit, but there was none of that in my eating or the way I treated the body that that Jesus Christ had bought with His own blood on the cross. I missed the greater principle.
How did it all happen?
Last year, I was really discouraged about my weight. It just seemed to be going up and up, and I didn’t have a regular period. I didn’t understand what was wrong, and I was frustrated.
Mark 4:39, ‘And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.’
I didn’t think hat the the Master of the universe was in the boat and controlling it the entire time and that I needed only to trust.
But… sometimes the Lord chastens those whom He loves with hard lessons.
There were 5 lessons I had to learn before my period started to creep back…
1) I finally stayed off the scale. – It does not tell me whether the inside of my body is working right or even if my body is acutlly healthy. The scale didn’t tell me the state of my heart, and it even distracted me from the real need of my soul and heart.
Hebrews 4:12, ‘For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.’
2) I wore stretchy clothes. Stretchy clothes are such a gift. I’m so thankful that God gave the gift of stretchy clothes, because they took my mind off of ‘hyper-focusing’ on my body and put it back into serving the Lord and living each day in His awesome world and meditating on the love of Jesus, instead of the size of my waist.
Psalm 105:1, ‘Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon his name; make known his deeds among the peoples!’
3) Really involve yourself in being present when you’re eating with your family. That takes your mind off the calories and how much is going ‘in’ and puts your mind on what really matters. I learned that what really matters is those precious moments with my family.
4) I started to wonder at the way that God had designed my body and really appreciate just how every body reveals God’s glory and creativity.
Psalm 139:13-16, ‘For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.’
5) This was the BIGGEST foundational principle. I needed to trust God. If God sent His Son Jesus Christ to give up His life so that I might have life, did God mean for me to worship my body? – What is the purpose of the life of Jesus, of the death of Jesus for sins?
Psalm 9:10, ‘And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.’
Jesus Christ didn’t give His life so that I could worship my body or to worship food. It was so sinners like me could be reconciled to God, to experiencing the love of God.
Romans 8:38-39, ‘For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
The less I thought about food the more I ate, because I was actually hungry, and I wasn’t weighing myself after every meal. That weighing, for me, was a form of bondage. It was bondage that the devil was trying to put me into, and I was not resisting the lies.
1 Peter 5:9-11 exhorts me to be sober against these attacks. These attacks are very real on the mind and on the soul.
‘Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: 9Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.
But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.
The food increased, and I thank the Lord Jesus that He enabled me to get past the fear of eating more.
All of that meant that I ate so much more than I had eaten in years. At times, I felt like I was eating way too much, but I was honestly hungry. My period started to come back more and more. It’s still not consistent, but I’m grateful that it is here and that my body is starting to work in the way it was made again.
So instead of trusting my feelings that said, ‘Don’t eat. You’re going to be ‘fat.’
The love of Jesus Christ gently turned me to trusting Him for healing. If Jesus Christ gave Himself to conquer all my worst enemies, why could He not freely heal my body and restore my soul?
I eat, because my body was made to need food. I’m grateful that God made such an amazing thing as food. It reminds me that every day I depend 100% on Him for His new mercies through the Lord Jesus.
One of those mercies is food and to purposely starve myself for the sake of a sick body is not to be thankful for that mercy.
Taking care of my body is a great gift. I’m sad that it took me so long to see this reality, but I am also thankful that the Lord Jesus truly is a gentle Savior that is always guiding me back to the truth.
Now we want to know if any of you would like to join in on the ‘Take Care of Your Temple Tuesday.’ It would be neat to see your ideas, tips, personal experiences about what you’ve learned about:
or anything that plays into taking care of your mind, soul, body and spirit.
I hope this was a blessing to you, and if you are struggling with amenorrhea, I want to encourage you to NOT be discouraged. You are not alone.
Have you ever struggled with losing your period?
Have you regained it? If so, how did it happen? What did you learn about yourself in the process?
Do you think the body is pretty amazing? 🙂