Guys. Gals. I have struggled with realizing God’s love. I often put off people, because I feel uncomfortable with the idea of being loved. 1 John says that ‘God is love’ and that if we know God, we know how to love, but if we don’t, we don’t know love. I don’t know if I could say that I really desired to know God that much or even at all for the early years of my life. I tried to depend on my own love or other’s love for me, but it always felt lacking… It always felt empty. I felt guilty, a sinner, dirty. I didn’t realize that it was the Love of God that sent Jesus Christ to the cross. It was the justice of God on our sins and the love of God for sinners that met together on the cross. I didn’t realize my identity, because I didn’t know I was loved because He is love. I am loved because He is love. I am loved because Jesus loved His Father so much that He would give up His life to take the sins of guilty vile sinners like me on Himself and DESTROY them on the cross. He loved His Father so much that the worst thing in the world was when God turned His face from Jesus and Jesus cried out, ‘My God, My God why hast thou forsaken me?’
That’s why this series on identity is so precious to me. I am so thankful that Kat and Naomi wanted to do this series. My first post was on discovering who Christ is, who He is to me, learning more and more and knowing Jesus more and deeper, so I can be secure in my identity in Christ alone.
Who is God? John opens up just a slice of the glory of God in 1 John. 1 John 3:16 says, ‘By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us. And we also ought to lay down our lives for the brethren.’
That is the only way to know love. That is the only love that is real. It’s so deep that God loved those who didn’t love Him first. In fact God loved those who hated Him. He opened up hearts to love Him, to worship Him, to repent of their sins, and want to follow after Jesus.
That’s who God is. He is love and justice. He is merciful and holy. He is good and mighty. There is no word to describe all of who God is, because God is infinite in every one of these attributes.
1 John 4:7-9 says, ‘Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. 8 He who does not love does not know God, for God is love…’
Girls God’s love is so deep. God’s love is really big and deep and wide, because God is infinite. God is incredible. I can’t even give you the description of how loved I have felt and I know I am by God. I don’t claim that I deserved this love. Many days I wonder how I could even be loved by God, the Creator of the universe, but I know it’s true. I know it’s because of Jesus, the reconciler.
This has changed my life. The days that I feel like trash, I remember that God is greater than my heart. I remember that God sent His Only Son so that He could receive all the glory for His infinite love to sinners. My family soaks me in the reality of who God is.
The solution to finding identity is not that I must look more at myself. The solution is looking longingly at the One who made me, knowing that I am no longer His enemy, but brought to the foot of the cross, broken, in repentance, knowing that His love is shed abroad in my heart.
The deeper assurance of that love of God is something that has enabled me to eat things without fear, knowing that the God who made me can bless that food to my body.
It’s been a miracle to me that I can just eat without thinking like Ellie said, and I know that this is the result of being loved by God, knowing that I can glorify and thank God as my Father for each piece of the food without being obsessed with it.
Have you ever struggled with being loved, with realizing God’s love?
How have you seen God’s love to you in this past year or the past years of your life?