Full permission to eat at any time and whatever food. what does that look like? Right now, I’m not 100% sure. I would say wholeheartedly, that by God’s grace, I don’t have any more fear foods. I’ve realized that some of the old ‘ED’ thoughts have been creeping back in in the past few weeks after I’ve delved a bit too deep into gut healing that masks itself and steers me back towards diet culture.
but I think full permission to eat goes deeper:
What does it look like in my mind especially as I’ve watched other girls I love and respect take those leaps in recovery?
#1 – Not judging my hunger at all. If I’m really hungry on a day without activity, I need to just. eat. period. Eat and not analyze any of the calories.
#2 – full permission to eat what my body craves NOT what Instagram says is the most ‘healthy’ or ‘trendy’ food to eat.
#3 – if something sounds good, go eat it and be thankful for it. don’t sit there analyzing the decision in my head.
Ok, so some of those are hard for me to imagine.
Ok, now I’m moving onto some thoughts and linking up with Meg for Week in Review.
It’s been one week since my 3rd marathon, and I’m feeling good. I’m thankful for one full week off of running, and I went for a short run today.
This week included a lot of baking including the best EVER cookies from Haley’s blog. (I used butter instead of coconut oil)
This week my sister and I did a photo shoot. It included a lot of laughter and awkward poses. (Who else is awkward about posing on camera?)
Psalm 36:7, ‘How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings.’
God is so good y’all. I can not tell you all the tough things that we went through this year, but here’s a small list.
Tough But Good Things:
Having my AMAZING Grandma here for 7 weeks and having to say goodbye to her.
Losing 2 dear friends and their pilot in a helicopter crash.
Starting a relationship but after a few months God directed me away from it. It was still tough, even though it was freeing knowing where God wanted me.
Thoughts going into the next week:
‘Aaahhhhh…. the conference we’re cooking for is coming up in 2 weeks. O_O’
‘Aaaahhhh …. CHRISTMAS AND THANKSGIVING are almost here.’
‘AAAHHHHHH…. MORE PUMPKIN GOODIES!’
‘AAHHHHH ……. I WANT to stop Calorie Counting. . .’
I’m excited, grateful, a bit anxious about stopping calorie counting. I want to pour syrup without ‘eyeing it.’ I have come a LONG way in recovery, and this really feels like the next step God has been pushing me gently towards, and I am trusting Him and trying to think up a ‘battle attack’ plan of being ready to tackle this calorie counting and get rid of it once and for all.
Full permission to eat whenever and whatever your body needs: What does that look like?