This phrase has been running through my head. It was probably the biggest realization of my recovery. The phrase is, ‘I will never be strong enough.’ Now what does that mean? I don’t mean it to be despairing, because I know SOMEONE who has all the power in the world to save even the weakest person like me.
That is one of my biggest struggles. I don’t want to be a ‘goodie two shoes’ or a Pharisee. They were the men that Jesus Christ condemned strongly. He loved those who were needy, those who were broken by their own sin. Matthew 5:3, ‘Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.’
Jesus preached the gospel to everyone. He rebuked those who rejected it because they thought they were good enough. For a long time, I knew that truth, but it wasn’t until I began to struggle with an ED that saw how deep my need was for His redemption, for my restoration of a relationship with God.
Luke 5:32, ‘I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.’
Luke 4:18, ‘The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,’
Those verses have really penetrated me more this year than any other year in my life. As I get older, I’m realizing my human frailty and how powerful God is to overcome my human frailty. I know that NOTHING can separate me from His divine, perfect love. It’s not my love for Him that keeps me in perfect peace. It’s His incomprehensible love. Psalm 103:15, ‘As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.’ He’s truly satisfies my needy heart and cleanses me of my sin. He gives me strength for today, and bright hope for tomorrow. He has conquered sin, death, hell, and the devil, and I know that I can hope in Him.
Psalm 28:7, ‘The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.’ By the grace of God I am what I am, and I can’t take any credit for it, but that’s what makes His grace so amazing.
1 Corinthians 15:22-23, ‘But now Christ has been raised from the dead, the first fruits of those who are asleep. For since by a man came death, by a man also came the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ all will be made alive.’
We’re up in the mountains snowboarding right now, and I’ve been thinking about all of the above thoughts while on the slopes… It definitely leaves your brain exhausted at the end of the day.
Sadly, a couple of the days I seem to have eaten some things that didn’t love my digestive system or vice versa, but thankfully God mercifully gave me relief by night time each night. Besides that it’s been an absolutely amazing time with my family enjoying the awesome mountains, carving snow off of them, falling down (not so much), laughing together, praying, playing games, and just enjoying simply being a family.
The eats of the past week have actually included a lot of experimenting with other blogger’s recipes. It’s amazing to be able to learn from some of the best. It gives me inspiration for my own cooking or baking experiments.
Brie’s Chocolate Coffee Overnight Oats were so good for a filling Sunday morning breakfast. It’s always nice to have something to fuel you through the Sunday morning service, so you can focus on the service, not on a growling stomach.
This random snack was gluten free bread with homemade almond butter (THANK you Vitamix) and jam.
After seeing Kodiak Cakes for so long on Ashley’s blog, I was pretty happy when I saw that they were on sale at Costco. We picked one up, and it’s pretty neat to think that you are having your carbs + your protein in everyone’s favorite breakfast.
I actually haven’t eaten cereal in a LONG time for breakfast, but, when on vacation, it’s actually been quite a treat to go back to my childhood bowls of cereal for breakfast. I am so thankful for simple. The more I recover and move forward from a life obsessed with food and exercise and body image, the more I realize just how food is another one of those amazing gifts that God gives us. It doesn’t matter whether it’s cereal or filet mignon. God made it all!
So Ashley (the other Ashley I follow) posted an AMAZING picture of a microwaved sweet potato for lunch with all the toppings, and that picture has since inspired me to try two sweet potatoes in the microwave. It’s actually SUPER convenient, but I don’t think I cook for it for quite long enough, yet.
Who else loves bagels? When we were younger, we used to get these GIANT ones from Sam’s Club, I think, and they were definitely a treat. I used to not like cream cheese, but I really enjoy it now on a bagel. This was a tasty little pre-snowboarding snack.
Dinner was um… good. The lighting was pretty terrible, but who am I to complain? My family had a really fun dinner together. We were playing ‘charades’ at the table with a game my sister has on her I-pod. I would say that we made a pretty hilarious spectacle in the restaurant.
Last but not least, I made this INCREDIBLE bread pudding from Lindsay. Instead of carrots, I used peach butter. My family loved it, and I think we would all say, ‘THANK YOU LINDSAY!’ :)) <33
Cereal? Do you like it? What’s your favorite kind?
Have you ever made bread pudding?
Do you do family vacations very often? Where do you go? Have you ever gone on a ski-cation?
Bagels. Favorite flavor and topping? GO!