I always thought of myself as the ‘chunky one.’ I struggled for a long time with realizing who I was in Christ. Identity was the whole root of my struggles with an ED. I always wanted to define myself by who someone else was, by what I did, but when I couldn’t do it anymore, when I couldn’t run as much, when I couldn’t be a good sister, when I couldn’t be the best daughter I wanted to be, I was THROWN back on Jesus. Thrown on the Rock of Christ; and that’s why identity is the root, the foundation that I want to start with every time I talk about what really helped me recover.
I remember. I would look at the mirror, and I would hate would I saw. I would look at the things I’d failed at, and I would feel this overwhelming blackness, depression, despair start to swallow up my heart and soul.
I read my Bible, but I read it with a sort of glazed over look often because I didn’t realize HOW much these things applied to me, who Jesus is as my Lord, Savior, King.
I love the beginning of God’s Word that starts with, ‘In the beginning God…’
That’s where our identity all starts.
We are not random creatures.
Because there is the Holy God, the Awesome Creator, that began this world.
And He said, ‘Let us make man in our image. . . ‘
What a privilege. What a divine gift. What a source of incredible everlasting joy to know that you are made in the image of the God of the universe.
Then He walked with man and woman in the garden. He walked with them intimately. It’s like the wisest, kindest, most wonderful, powerful King in the world being your best friend. You feel a sense of holy awe and wonder, but you are also filled with affection, deep desire to be with Him, because He is your identity.
You aren’t looking to others to define what your body shape should be.
You aren’t looking to social media follows or likes for how much you are worth.
You aren’t looking to the amount of friend you have to realize that your life is valuable.
You look above.
You look to the One who started it all.
Micah 7:18, ‘Who is a God like unto thee, that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? he retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy.’
And a sense of GREAT peace overwhelms your heart.
You look out, and you realize that maybe there are soft parts about your body. You realize that you aren’t:
the great gardener I thought I was
the perfect sister I wanted to be
the best baker I aspired to be
the most popular blogger in the ED recovery world
but that’s not my identity. Yes, those are all things I love. I love gardening to some extent, love baking especially Ashley’s, Laura’s, Kat’s, Taylor’s, Faith’s, and Lindsay’s goodies, love to write about recovery and eating disorders and body image and God’s WONDROUS work of healing in my life, but none of those are the core of my identity.
That’s what this podcast is about; it’s from the depths of my heart and Summer’s heart to yours. It’s reminding you that even if you’re in bed, and you can’t ‘do’ anything; you are STILL made in God’s image.
And if Christ Jesus has redeemed you and me from our sins we are a NEW Creature in Christ. 2 Corinthians 5:17, ‘Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.’
In this episode Summer and I confronted full on these issue of identity:
– Our World’s Struggles with Identity
– Summer defines identity for each one of us as human beings. Who are we? What makes life valuable?
– Where we need to start when it comes to identity
– Why issues like body image, fear, doubt, anxiety, depression are indications of our root problem of identity
– Summer’s Growth in learning her own identity in Christ Jesus
– The sweetness of learning to draw nearer to Jesus
– How Summer reminds herself of her true identity
– Not defining ourselves by what we ‘do’ but who are are, starting with Who God is
– Learning to Delight in Who Christ is as the Very Root of our Identity
Summer has the BEST most encouraging hand lettering Instagram. She shares Scriptural truths with such beauty, humility, delight, joy, and grace; I really appreciate her so much, and it was such a gift from God to be able to share this conversation.
Some of Summer’s beautiful art:
Have you struggled with your identity, with remembering who you are?
How do you not let others or other things define your identity in Christ?