I think it’s about time for a life update y’all. This update will be full of why I’m doing a new Instagram, less Instagram, more living, less focus on food. I’m going a totally different direction after about 3 years on Instagram. This update is not to say that I’m leaving Instagram, because I love it on there, but I think it’s time to share something that expands on the recovery/ For 3 years, I did the food Instagram thing. And it really helped me heal. It helped me walk through stages of healing. It helped me walk through the ups and downs of hypothalamic amenorrhea. It helped me walk through the food challenges. It helped me connect with some of my current best friends. And now I’m moving on. . . to a new podcast.
I know. I know. I only started the other podcast about a year and a half ago, and right now, I think that the Lord wants me to continue with it each week with a shorter episode on recovery, body image, food freedom, or something related.
But the newest project? It’s going to be a podcast, Lord willing, that expands to so many of the topics facing young women and young men today. It’s going to be called the ‘Seek First Podcast’ based on this verse, ‘But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.’
Why am I moving on?
Well, I’m not entirely moving on, but I’m moving forward.
I’m moving forward because:
#1) I think it’s an indication of how much God has definitely healed me and moved me forward. – I’m not the same person I was 2 years ago or even 6 months ago, and I know that even though change is hard and not everyone stays with you through the change, change has got to happen. And it always teaches me something wonderful when it does happen.
#2) There are SO many parts of identity and growing up that I want to share with you, share your struggles, prayer requests, dreams, tears, joys, hurts, and victories. – I want others who haven’t specifically struggled with eating disorders to feel like they can be included, prayed for, and converse about growing up and becoming an adult. Cause let’s face it. God didn’t make us to go through this life alone.
Those are two of the biggest reasons I’m moving forward. I’m nervous, because I tend to get too focused on numbers and lack of page views or things like that, but if it’s where God wants me, I know He will bring the right people to read, to listen, to become part of this community.
I’m so very grateful for my new podcast host, Jess, who is one of my trusted steady friends that I’ve met via Instagram. She is going to be the energetic co-host, the artistic talent behind the podcast, and I’m so honored and thankful God put her into my path.
You need to go read Jess’s story on her blog: ‘God Set Me Free From My Eating Disorder,’ and she also has done several podcasts with me on her own recovery.
Addressing the Comparison Trap In Recovery/Social Media/Eating/Body Image – One of my wise humble friends that I really respect, Jess, shares her thoughts about defeating comparison when it comes to social media, eating, and body image. Hint: It comes from not looking at other people.
How God’s Love Trump’s Eating Disorders – Jess shares her own story of healing, redemption, hope, victory in Jesus from her ED!
On the podcast, which I would greatly appreciate your prayer for, Jess and I are hoping to discuss topics like:
Finding Your Worth Not in Your Accomplishment But in Christ
Taking A Sabbath Rest
Jess is overwhemingly loving and truthful and humble, and I pray that we could do what Paul says in 1 Corinthians 2:1-5, ‘And I, brethren, when I came to you, came not with excellency of speech or of wisdom, declaring unto you the testimony of God. 2For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified.3And I was with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling. 4And my speech and my preaching wasnot with enticing words of man’s wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power: 5That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.’
I’m excited to share this new phase with you all, and I hope the podcast will become a community where we can share, be vulnerable with one another and build good friendships.
The other thing I want to tell you about?
I’m running again, more.
I’m training for a long race.
I’ve never had the kind of nourishing mindset that I have now, and it’s amazing to feel free to eat, no matter whether or not I ran 0 miles or 10 miles.
I’ve gotten my period for 2 months in a row, and I’m determined to keep being gentle and patient while cautiously training with one of the sports I love so much.
It’s been incredibly fun, and I’m being reminded why I love running so much. I don’t love it for the calorie burn or being/looking lean. I truly love it because it’s freeing. It’s freeing to be the body shape I am now without wanting to manipulate it anymore.
It’s ok to be you.
It’s ok to be who God created you to be, and it’s ok to enjoy a sport that you love without looking like the elite runners or tennis players.
That’s what I’m learning. That’s my life update for now! I will keep you updated on that upcoming podcast.
What’s been happening in your life? Can you share an update with me?