Overeating. I still find myself parannoyed about it. I often think our culture kind of makes you feel guilty if you don’t eat a ‘certain amount’ especially if you’re a woman. It can be hard when I’m more hungry than normal, and I let my mind go down the rabbit hole of, ‘Aaahhhh I didn’t exercise enough to be eating this much,’ instead of totally trusting God with my hunger signals and just eating. I compare myself to others and how much they’re eating, forgetting that I have completely different needs than them.
The good news is that I don’t overthink overeating nearly as much anymore. Last night I climbed into bed with a book, and I dug into some Cookie Crisp cereal, honey mustard Snyders pretzels, and chocolate, and I ate the rest of that bag of pretzels.
I was hungry for it, and my body was craving the salt and the carbs. I didn’t feel guilty, initially, but. . . this is part of recovery. Part of recovery is the ups and the downs, the moments of going down the rabbit hole, and then asking the Lord to renew my mind and focus my mind on Him, His gifts of nourishment, food, health, recovery, freedom.
And hunger. It doesn’t just mean, my stomach growling.
– emotional hunger
– physical hunger
– satisfaction (such as a salad might fill up my stomach for about an hour or two, but it’s more satisfying for me to eat pizza with salad)
– mental hunger (sometimes your brain just needs some brain fuel. You might not feel physically hungry, but your brain is just fogged)
Isn’t it incredible that the amazing, awesome infinite God of the universe designed us with so many needs that only He can fulfill out of His abundance of food, both spiritual and physical?
Hunger is such a complex thing. There isn’t one size fits all for hunger. We all have different needs. We all have different ways God designed us. That looks different for each one of us.
That’s what I’m learning, and it’s a freeing realization.
Recovery has not been easy for me, and I know that every person reading this that has struggled knows that it wasn’t easy for them either, but it’s worth it.
– Honoring the hunger God gave you
– Daily walking in freedom and thankfulness for ALL of God’s incredible nourishment
– Being reminded that Jesus can rescue us from the most hopeless seeming situations
Do I still struggle to listen to my hunger?
Yes, sometimes, I do, but when I tune in and answer my hunger with, ‘Yes, I will feed and nourish my body for God’s glory,’ I have found so much joy in that as opposed to the mental bondage of fear around hunger and feeding your body.
One of the Psalms I have often thought about when I’m facing the enemies of fear and doubt and lies about my body is Psalm 27. It might seem a bit weird at first, but I think it will be understandable when you see the verses.
Psalm 27:1-5, ‘
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4 One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord, and to enquire in his temple.
5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.’
God has definitely HID me from those thoughts and protected me especially when I’m wrestling to honor that hunger.
Now I want to hear from you and your story about learning to honor and appreciate the hunger you’ve been given.
Was it hard for you to learn to honor your hunger if you’ve been affected by diet culture?
Have you ever been worried about overeating even if your body is hungry?