Feelings are very deceptive. This is especially true for me when I’m struggling with my body image, eating, or exercise. During the height of my struggles with eating and my body, I wrestled with not being driven by my feelings, with not listening to the negative thoughts that were fighting in my head.
I’m not a person to say, ‘Follow your heart.’ The truth of this verse in Jeremiah 17:9 rang so true with the state of my heart during my struggles, ‘The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?’
My heart deceived me. It told me that I wasn’t good enough, that I was FAT, that I was ugly and a failure. It told me that this god of eating and exercise would always control me, and that I wouldn’t have a way out.
What did I need? I needed truth. I needed this truth. Jeremiah 17: 5 says, ‘Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is.’ I needed to trust in the Lord, to trust that in Him, I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I had to trust that He works ALL things for good. (Romans 8:28.) And through blinding tears, it was difficult to see that.
Now I look back, and I know that everything I went through was for a reason. It changed me. I’m a different person. I’m stronger in the Lord and the power of His might. I’m more secure in my body and my identity than I’ve ever been. I’m not perfect, by any means, but my identity rests in the Christ Jesus who is perfect and came to purge my sins and show me what love means.
John 10:10 says, ‘The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.’ That thief tried to steal my joy and my security through my struggles, but I am so thankful for the life, the NEW life that Jesus brings.
And now, I don’t need to be afraid to fuel this lil’ body for God’s glory.
Thank Jenn for hosting the ‘What I ate Wednesday’ link-up, and I can’t wait to see what yummies everybody else is eating. 😉
Breakfast was simple. I had a cup of plain full-fat Mountain High yogurt, pecans, and almond butter. I also enjoyed one of my favorite kinds of apples. I’m weird, in that I like the sour Granny Smith apples. However, we never really buy them, so I had quite a few over the weekend at the camp and even brought a few home. Is that weird?
2. Lunch. I don’t know how many of you other fellow bloggers/foodies/eaters like cabbage, but cabbage salad has to be one of my favorites. This was my lunch course #1, with a side of roasted broccoli and PARMESAN!
Lunch Course #2 – A piece of chocolate (gluten free) banana bread with ‘Skippy Natural Honey Peanut Butter’. Yum. Yum. Yum.
And Lunch Course #3 was an unpictured APPLE… Do two apples a day keep two doctors away? I also sprinkled a few Strawberry Mini Wheats into the leftover honey greek yogurt and ate those.
Wow, listing all that food makes me sound like a ravenous wolf, but I was hungry enough for all of it, so I say, ‘Roll with it and be grateful!’
Dinner was this ‘new to me’ casserole dish that I found off of the great land of Pinterest!
My sad attempt at making the casserole look good for a picture. However, I did think the ‘cheesiness’ looked pretty tasty?
My plate. One of my favorite dinners is some sort of spicy Mexican dish with cheese and chips. 🙂 Mexican has to be one of my favorite cuisines.
What have you been loving to eat lately?
What is your favorite cuisine?
Savory or sweet?