The other day my sister and I were in the car, and she was driving. I was reading Psalm 115. Verses 3-8 stood out to me as I thought about how, for years, I’d idolized numbers, whether it be calories, miles run, minutes exercised, steps walked, or the number on the scale. It made me think of how by God’s POWER and work in me, I am letting go of counting, of idolizing those numbers that defined me so for many years.
But our God is in the heavens: he hath done whatsoever he hath pleased. Their idols are silver and gold, the work of men’s hands They have mouths, but they speak not: eyes have they, but they see not. They have ears, but they hear not: noses have they, but they smell not: They have hands, but they handle not: feet have they, but they walk not: neither speak they through their throat. They that make them are like unto them; so is every one that trusteth in them.’
Reading thee verses made me think of how much I relied, how much I am tempted to rely on these idols that are powerless. They’re powerless to save me. They’re powerless to deliver my soul. But the Psalm goes on to describe the power of Him who is ABLE!
Verses 9-12 describe Who is our help and shield, ‘O Israel, trust thou in the Lord: he is their help and their shield. O house of Aaron, trust in the Lord: he is their help and their shield. Ye that fear the Lord, trust in the Lord: he is their help and their shield. The Lord hath been mindful of us: he will bless us; he will bless the house of Israel; he will bless the house of Aaron.’
It’s the Lord. The calories I eat can’t save me. They nourish me, but they don’t save my soul. The exercise I do can be fun or it can be damaging, but the Lord is GOOD to all those who wait upon Him; He is a MIGHTY Savior to powerless people like me.
Numbers were a HUGE obsession for me just one year ago. I counted steps from time to time. Calories were still a HUGE part of my life, while now, they are starting to be less important to me.
When I was on the trip to Europe I noticed something. My phone counts steps, and every day I was obsessed with getting in enough steps. It was hard to resist the desire to just move more because I didn’t get enough steps. So I found a way to turn off the step counter, and it was freeing. It was freeing, and it made so much more time for
Smelling and taking in all the beautiful sights and sounds
Being With My Sisters and Being More Present
Worshipping God Instead of Worshipping Numbers
Realizing Just How Jesus SETS me Free From These Idols, How He is Enabling Me To LET Go of Them
For years it felt like I was in a stagnant place when it came to my obsession, my idolatry over numbers. I would get on the scale so many times per day but Sarah from Creating Better Tomorrow (who doesn’t blog anymore) was a HUGE influence in me letting go of the scale.
Then there was the step counts and the miles run. Those were huge ones for me. I would often just ‘run extra’ just to burn more calories. And a friend and sister in the Lord on Instagram was the person who really got me thinking about why I was doing it. I wasn’t doing it for the right reason.
Now I’m not saying that everybody who counts steps or miles is wrong, because I think MANY people have the right motivation, but I didn’t. Mollie really made me think about it when she shared that she stopped using her Fitbit. Another Instagrammer named, Brooke, made me think about why I was using it, and I had to let go.
That was another step to freedom.
Jesus sets captives free. I’m convinced that full and HOPEFUL recovery is only possible in Jesus Christ, because He sets the soul free. No human being can set a soul free, and Jesus is setting me FREE! I’m realizing that freedom everyday, and I know that the last idol here is:
I’m writing these things to stay accountable. Intuitive eating is not easy for me. It’s tough, rough. I used to be an intuitive eater, but the ‘letting go’ of calories is not easy. The idol is big, but Jesus Christ is the Lord and Savior, and I can’t worship calories more than I love Jesus.
I am going to fight this idol, and I know that I will fall and stumble, but I know that when I cry out to the Lord He will deliver me and enable me.
It’s only through Him.
So here’s to letting go of those numbers, letting go of those obsessions, those idols, because growing closer to Jesus is so much sweeter than knowing the number of calories I eat each day.
Anybody else have numbers that were REALLY hard for them to let go of?
Are you still letting of numbers/obsessions in your life?
When you let go of certain numbers, did you realize it made room for other things?