Thinking out Loud with Amanda for Today’s Link-uP!
Joy. Pure abject joy. That’s what I’m experiencing today after 4.5 pretty heavy months of uncertainty and dealing with tough emotion. It’s amazing how God made us to experience emotion. Have you ever read the Psalms? They are so full of the emotions of PRAISE, agony, sorrow, conviction, pain, and much much more. This week I’m thankful to say that after 4.5 months of experiencing so many emotions of confusion, uncertainty, sorrow over sin, and even being upset about the place where God has put me. I was discontent. I readily confess that now, because God really revealed that to me earlier this week. I wasn’t dwelling in contentment. I wasn’t REJOICING in the Lord and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His suffering. I was just … wallowing in misery and wanting something that God doesn’t have for me right now.
I really had to face that earlier this week, and the emotion, the sorrow of spending so many months feeling sorry for myself, hit me hard.