Today I’m joining up with Nourishing Home for a post on recovery, a post on the battle that recovery is and how I’m fighting the battle day by day.
Recovery is a Mental Battle.
Recovery is as mental as ED is. However there is one big difference.
One is a positive mental battle.
The other is a negative mental battle.
And you have to jump into the battle. No one can force you into it. Yet, at the same time, you are not alone. It may be terrifying, but the same God who made you is the one who is with you as you plunge into recovery, never to look back.
Isaiah 41:10 says, “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”
(This picture is for illustration’s sake only. I’m not encouraging you to go do cliff jumping… It was fun, though.)
Psalm 18:39 says, “For thou hast girded me with strength unto the battle: thou hast subdued under me those that rose up against me.”
Our Father has girded us for this battle. He has strengthened us, and He promises that He will never leave us nor forsake us. The battle is truly under His awesome protection and loving care, and He will be faithful.
So what does God give you the strength to do? He gives you the strength for each little step of recovery like grabbing that scoop of peanut butter without measuring it.
You have to be willing to have someone else serve you ice-cream, even if it’s a huge bowl.
I have to stop yourself when I WANT to exercise off those calories I ate and say, ‘No. I will not worship this idol. I will take care of my temple.’ Instead, you enjoy the opportunity to move happy, walk and meditate on God’s goodness, and rest on the couch, thanking Him for His love.
It’s eating my sibling’s birthday cake and enjoying it without obsessing over the ‘sugar.’ Instead, I get to thank God for my wonderful brother and the 24 years he’s been one of my best friends.
(This cake could be termed ‘sugar-explosion.’)
Now that I’m ‘happy weight restored’, recovery is the mental battle of not micro-analyzing my hunger in the morning and just slicing some bread, putting some peanut butter on it, and eating it, without worrying about whether I’m super hungry … or only a little hungry.
It’s eating pizza and enjoying it.
Ephesians 6:10, ‘Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.’ For me, recovering has been coming to know the power of this verse, the power of the God whom I serve. I feel, often, so weak by myself, but in the Lord and the power of His might, I have strength. I have strength to overcome, strength to move mountains, because I have a Father who holds the world in His hands.
What are some little steps towards recovery and a better relationship with food and exercise that you have taken?