This phrase has been running through my head. It was probably the biggest realization of my recovery. The phrase is, ‘I will never be strong enough.’ Now what does that mean? I don’t mean it to be despairing, because I know SOMEONE who has all the power in the world to save even the weakest person like me.
That is one of my biggest struggles. I don’t want to be a ‘goodie two shoes’ or a Pharisee. They were the men that Jesus Christ condemned strongly. He loved those who were needy, those who were broken by their own sin. Matthew 5:3, ‘Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.’
Jesus preached the gospel to everyone. He rebuked those who rejected it because they thought they were good enough. For a long time, I knew that truth, but it wasn’t until I began to struggle with an ED that saw how deep my need was for His redemption, for my restoration of a relationship with God.