This post was originally written in 2016. I’ve been learning and growing in intuitive eating since then, but I still have a long way to go. I’m thankful for those of you who have come along with me on this journey. Most of all I’m thankful that God is using it to teach me to trust Him more.
Trusting God is a part of eating intuitively. I know that is why I still balk at intuitive eating some days. I know that I don’t trust God enough; I trust in my own feelings or I don’t trust anything at all. Why would I not trust a loving Heavenly Father, who is slow to anger (Nehemiah 9:31), plenteous in mercy (Psalm 145:8), perfectly holy (1 John 1:5), perfectly just (2 Thessalonians 1:6) and the VERY essence of love for every bit of food, every breath of air I breath? He is so perfect, wise, heavenly, and wonderful. He can take care of my body SO much more perfectly than I could ever attempt to do, and He gave me the intuitive eating signals. Why is it wrong to listen?
Last night I came home from a rather … trying… experience. I was tired and a bit nervous, but I pulled my Bible out and opened to this Psalm.
Psalm 146:3-6, ‘
3Put not your trust in princes, nor in the son of man, in whom there is no help.
4His breath goeth forth, he returneth to his earth; in that very day his thoughts perish.
5Happy is he that hath the God of Jacob for his help, whose hope is in the LORD his God:
6Which made heaven, and earth, the sea, and all that therein is: which keepeth truth for ever:’
Those verses are so comforting to me. And they also hit me where it hurts, because they show me that too often I’m putting my trust in things that can’t help me. But when I fix my eyes on God, the God of Jacob, I will be happy, content, peaceful, because God has all the power. He has all the knowledge. Even when I don’t know, God knows. That’s why I can trust Him, trust Jesus with EVERY single part of my being including my eating.
Answer: It’s not wrong to listen to my intuitive eating signals. Now that I’m weight restored I’m learning that trusting my intuitive eating signals is a way of seeing that God has restored my body to a healthier place.
I’m not the epitome of trusting God. Too often, I’m the little chattering girl in the corner, thinking or worrying about all the ways that ‘food’ could affect me negatively or how a lost workout could be. . . a big bummer. This is a journey; God is teaching me to trust Him with all my heart and not lean on my own understanding.
I’m thankful that those moments come much less often than they used to, but I can’t say that I am perfect at trusting God when it comes to life and specifically eating without fear or guilt.
The biggest foundational truth that comes to mind when I’m often struggling with the freedom to eat and enjoy eating is that Jesus has made me free. And if the Son shall make me free from the bonds of sin, I shall be FREE indeed, including the bondage of having to calorie count very single bit of food that goes into our mouths.
I’m free to serve Jesus, not the calories I eat.
That’s an incredible truth; it’s one that is hard for me to remember. I have a very short memory span; I often relate to the children of Israel when they forget God’s goodness and they go after other gods. Yet, I’m thankful that God binds my wandering heart to Him, especially in remembering my freedom to worship Him and not my food.
John 8:34-36, ‘Jesus answered them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whosoever committeth sin is the servant of sin. And the servant abideth not in the house for ever: but the Son abideth ever. If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed…’
Who is this Father and God Who has made my body, spirit, soul, and mind?
Isaiah 40:8-15, ‘The grass withereth, the flower fadeth: but the word of our God shall stand for ever. O Zion, that bringest good tidings, get thee up into the high mountain; O Jerusalem, that bringest good tidings, lift up thy voice with strength; lift it up, be not afraid; say unto the cities of Judah, Behold your God! Behold, the Lord God will come with strong hand, and his arm shall rule for him: behold, his reward is with him, and his work before him. He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young. Who hath measured the waters in the hollow of his hand, and meted out heaven with the span, and comprehended the dust of the earth in a measure, and weighed the mountains in scales, and the hills in a balance? Who hath directed the Spirit of the Lord, or being his counsellor hath taught him? With whom took he counsel, and who instructed him, and taught him in the path of judgment, and taught him knowledge, and shewed to him the way of understanding? Behold, the nations are as a drop of a bucket, and are counted as the small dust of the balance: behold, he taketh up the isles as a very little thing.’
Wow, and another Christian brother in my life put it in such a beautiful way when he said, ‘God does not overstate but rather UNDERSTATES His glory and character in the Bible, because our human minds just can never fully understand it.’
Isn’t that incredible, and if he cares for the lilies, CLOTHES them (Matthew 6), feeds the birds of the air, why would I not trust Him for each calorie that goes into my mouth, for each moment of every single day of my life?
If you think of me, pray for TRUST. Pray for this kind of trust in Proverbs 3:5-7, ‘Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.’
I know that this wisdom and trust is HEAVENLY, from above, and I know and am thankful that we can come to the throne with all of these PRAISES and requests.
Jeremiah 29:12-14, ‘Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you, saith the Lord: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places whither I have driven you, saith the Lord; and I will bring you again into the place whence I caused you to be carried away captive.’
How have you been learning to trust God?
If you’ve recovered from an eating disorder did you struggle with relearning intuitive eating? How did you do it?
What is the biggest cure for any anxiety or fears that you have?
Have you always been good at intuitive eating? Any tips?