I originally wrote this post a little over a year ago (July 14th, to be exact) but with last weekend’s events I thought it would be a good time to dust it off and have a chat. I’ve added some extra commentary and advice – I hope it might help anyone who is struggling with the horror of recent events/the world lately.
We live in a scary world. It’s getting scarier by the minute. Every single day I log on social media and just see sadness – murder and hate and terror and ignorance and just horrible, horrible, horrible things. It’s enough to incite fear into even the strongest person. And that, I am not.
I’ve mentioned before that I don’t comment on horrible events like the ones we’ve seen in the past few months because it requires me to put time and energy into it which, for me, is just so draining emotionally. The truth is, I stay as far away from them as possible. I read one or two headlines, find out whatever I need to know to not be ignorant on the topic, and step away. I have a habit of getting lost in horror stories, and then I find myself in a place of anxiety, sadness, and fear. Everywhere I go, I see the possibility for terror. Especially now that I have the boys, I simply can’t let that happen.
And to be honest, that is where most of my fears are based these days: what kind of world am I bringing these boys into? I can raise them to be kind and caring, respecting and just, compassionate and honest, but I can’t guarantee that the world I will be letting them go into will be the same. I can’t guarantee that something horrific won’t happen to my children and that is what scares me the most. (Side note: I think everyone should read this piece I saw on Scary Mommy, commenting on a group of people shielding a baby stroller during the gunfire in Dallas. It says everything I feel, but this line is what gave me chills “If we can’t look at adults and see their worth and absolute right to life, how about we turn our attention on children. We need to make the world better. We need to do better.”)